My Soul Will Have to Wait...
Pernilla and Marika all grown up.
December 12, 2012
–Motorcycle accident huh?
–Nurse huh?
She was attractive, dark-haired, thirty-something, and standing right next to me at the bar in Transylvania, yet I hadn’t noticed her until she spoke. My reply was based on experience; women who know how I lost my arm before I tell them are always nurses.
- Nope, doctor, Chief of Surgery actually.
- That would explain it too.
- Healthy one-armed guy with tattoos and a scar on his spine… doesn’t take a psychic.
- Not a psychic, just a Chief of Surgery… or a nurse.
I smiled and so did she. Then I spun around to relate the exchange to my curious Romanian friends, but when I spun back she was gone. I’d been reduced to a medical statistic and possibly missed out on an interesting date. The story of my life these days — too little time to meet good women, then when I do I drop the ball.
I’m living right on Venice Beach now with my amazing daughter Marika; it’s like getting a second shot at life. Our Buggy is the coolest car in Los Angeles. And Radical.FM has just released our full-blown service in Sweden and a limited version worldwide. But I work a lot of 15 hour days and live in a constant state of jet-lag between LA, New York, Sweden, Romania, and SE Asia. I rarely know what time zone I’m in, never mind what’s cool in a given society or situation.
Yoshiko is in Japan with a new life, but we still chat occasionally. She has no tolerance for my complaints and says I’m spoiled to have a fascinating job and two amazing daughters, and that’s true enough. She also says I’m single by choice, and that I’ll find love as soon as I’m ready. I hope she’s right there, because I’ve ‘felt’ ready for a while. She means that I prioritize Radical over a love life, and she should know. In fact I’m so busy that I haven’t had time to update Redbuggy in over a year; my apologies.
And in all that time my distributors have still not secured a deal for Adventuress Wanted. As an artist my greatest fear is not starvation but obscurity — that my work will not be seen. That would be an insult to everyone involved with this movie, so I’ve decided to self-distribute. Internet is changing the way creative works can find an audience. Some bloggers develop bigger followings than established journalists. Talented independent musicians are gaining traction without label support. And at least occasionally, Indie Filmmakers find recognition without studio backing.
I’m working hard to make Radical.FM the most exciting music service in the world. If I succeed I’ll make more money than I need, so I’m becoming philanthropic; with everything I’ve seen in life I want to start giving back. But I’m not rich yet, so I have to start small. To promote the arts I’ve decided to release Adventuress Wanted as a User Supported experiment. We’ve just set up quality downloads from this site, and we’ll let people distribute it as they see fit – so go for it, and spread the word! It’s watermarked for donations and we’ve added a PayPal Donations page as well. And if the film generates any money we’ll start a fund for The African Academy of Gifted Girls which I will get around to building after I’ve moved on from Radical…
And had a very LONG vacation.
Until then dreams of beautiful women, professional successes, and being near my daughters, will have to keep me strong through grueling hours and sleepless travels.
Music helps too, and Marika has introduced me to several songs I’d likely have missed if she were not back in my daily life. Recently she turned me on to “Santeria” by Sublime. We were sure we had discovered the next big hit as we blasted it repeatedly on Radical.FM until the neighbors complained. But it turns out the song is twenty years old and was a big hit here in California.
Who knew in Sweden?
“Santeria” is my all-time favorite song of the moment and its chorus sums up my existence:
What I really want to know, milady,
What I really want to say I can’t define.
Well its love that I need,
But my soul will have to wait…
But you don’t have to wait another minute to see Adventuress Wanted!
Download the entire 90 minute award winning film immediately right here! And while my lonely soul waits impatiently…
Enjoy the film, and enjoy very Happy Holidays!
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